[ Allison thought that the hardest thing she's done thus far, aside from becoming the one that calls the shots when it came to hunting, was breaking up with Scott. But now that she's back here, with her Asgard memories conflicting drastically with her memories from home, she realizes that this is the hardest thing she'll ever have to do. Not only does she have to break up with Scott again, but she has to explain why. She has to get her things from him and move back into her own room, has to get him to understand when he hasn't gone through what she has. Back home, he knew what had happened, but here...
They were living together, for God's sake. Things were amazing between them and now she has to ruin that. Again.
But the longer she puts it off, the harder it's going to be. Not only that but she can't hide out at Jo's forever; he'd eventually find out she was back or, worse yet, he'd run into her out and about somewhere and she'd have to explain why she had been avoiding him as well.
If only she could convince herself that staying with him here was the right thing to do. But she needs time to herself, time to grieve. Knowing about her mother's death in advance here didn't help at all back home - after all, she didn't remember anything about this place - and it hasn't done much since she woke up. The only thing that's changed drastically is that she's apologized to Isaac and that she knows the truth about what happened. She hasn't gotten through her grieving yet. She hasn't even started, honestly.
So as much as she wishes she could just go to Scott, at the pet shop or at their - his - room, she can't. She knows that she would just curl up in his arms again and let him hold her instead of doing what she needs to do. ]
I'm awake again.
[ There's so many questions she has for him, like why he took her to Jo's, but those aren't quite as important. Besides, if she starts asking stuff like that, she'll just put off the inevitable and lose her nerve. ]
And I'm okay. I know you were probably worried, but I'm fine. [ Physically, anyway. And now comes the hard part: ] Are you busy? I need to talk to you.
text; THIS IS GOING TO BE HORRIBLE AND PAINFUL also this is after she texts isaac.
They were living together, for God's sake. Things were amazing between them and now she has to ruin that. Again.
But the longer she puts it off, the harder it's going to be. Not only that but she can't hide out at Jo's forever; he'd eventually find out she was back or, worse yet, he'd run into her out and about somewhere and she'd have to explain why she had been avoiding him as well.
If only she could convince herself that staying with him here was the right thing to do. But she needs time to herself, time to grieve. Knowing about her mother's death in advance here didn't help at all back home - after all, she didn't remember anything about this place - and it hasn't done much since she woke up. The only thing that's changed drastically is that she's apologized to Isaac and that she knows the truth about what happened. She hasn't gotten through her grieving yet. She hasn't even started, honestly.
So as much as she wishes she could just go to Scott, at the pet shop or at their - his - room, she can't. She knows that she would just curl up in his arms again and let him hold her instead of doing what she needs to do. ]
I'm awake again.
[ There's so many questions she has for him, like why he took her to Jo's, but those aren't quite as important. Besides, if she starts asking stuff like that, she'll just put off the inevitable and lose her nerve. ]
And I'm okay. I know you were probably worried, but I'm fine. [ Physically, anyway. And now comes the hard part: ] Are you busy? I need to talk to you.